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Oct. 15th, 2017 06:56 pm
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Some walking bag of assholes graffitied my car with a bright purple paint marker :U

Seriously if it's not one thing it's another!

On bright side it's great inspiration for my art assignment and since the car's stuffed anyway I can write a sarcastic reply next to it with no compunctions

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Oct. 11th, 2017 10:43 pm
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I just ended my eight-year relationship with Sparr.

He did not do anything I would deem abusive, I consider him safe to date and interact with and will be attempting to stay his friend, if that's something we can do.

I don't want to talk about it any more than that right now.

~Sor
moop.

70.

Oct. 11th, 2017 09:13 am
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Second art assignment got a better grade and I found a way to do paid work that doesn't take up all my brain cycles. So, starting to feel better.
Today is for French cos gee whizz!

Have the urge to make a weird livestream. It seems like there would be several streams that aren't straightforward gaming/art/programming but I've no idea how to find them? My habit of wanting to see what everyone else is doing is probably a bad one tho, I should just do it. (After studying French)

Palimpsest (Unrefined?)

Oct. 9th, 2017 07:00 pm
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He called me a palimpsest
As he put his own marks over the traces of bruises
Left on my breast
By another boyfriend, on another day.

And I smile and tilt my head and ask
(because I was sure I knew the word, until I was asked to define it)
"What's that?"

A new document written on top of an old.
Like teeth marks and welts
Bright red on fading purple-green.
Like kisses on lips
That yesterday kissed another.
Like a love that doesn't go away
Just because I've loved before
And doesn't erase the feelings I have for him or him or them or her.

And I am a palimpsest
I am so many layers of so many stories
Built on my skin, a stack of memories
of touch
and caress
and bite
and kiss
Each their own moment.
Their own gift to my body.

A new document written on top of an old.
Not erasing
Enhancing.

And I know I am loved.

69.1.

Oct. 9th, 2017 12:22 am
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It took a long time (and a lot of blankets) but I got through the grief and am in a functional state again.

JFC what a badly-timed depressive episode tho, it's messed up paid work I was already struggling with. Shame you can't get extensions outside of uni. OTL

69.

Oct. 8th, 2017 01:08 pm
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Still wretched. Drew on cardboard with cheap oil pastels and felt a little better. Drawing people with them would be fun but I generally only draw people I'm interested in or admire (cos it's so difficult ww) and considering my last fandom wound up Legit Problematic, I'm feeling nervous about bikes ATM and [REDACTED] has squelched my sense of pride and self-actualisation like a slater bug, who the fuck then? (Ben Quilty? Lmao) (actually I've binged on Art Bites videos for uni and drawing artists would be at least something to do)

I want to go to MONA and see the poop machine I relate to it strongly rn

(Posts will probably be alarming for a while. Sorry.)

68.

Oct. 7th, 2017 11:46 am
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Rally today I promised to go to but that was before I realised I'm self-loathing morally invertebrate garbage. I must've been making alarming noises cos the housemate left chocolate outside my bedroom door last night.

I got the same (pretty mediocre) mark for the art assignment I busted my ass on and the French test I did literally no study for and answered by guesswork. On average this is still much better than most of my attempts at uni but *loud mouth farting noises*

Still having weird dreams. Still have a lot to do. Still can't bring myself to care.

67.

Oct. 6th, 2017 12:38 pm
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I've been dealing with a stupid emotional situation for two days and had vivid, weird dreams. I feel numb. I think part of me died in the night.

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